Every tree dreams of being a forest.
We are that dream.
We are that tree, dreaming a forest. The wood is felled and hewn into the side of a great ship. The ship is launched quietly, in the night, and now ears are listening for a wind.
A deflated void has an impossible weight.
The mute language of onion skins is trying to tell me things.
In a meaningful universe one desperately seeks out nonsense.
Then, in a meaningless universe, one desperately seeks meaning, hunting it out from wherever it may be found. An infinite tide of greener grass on an equally infinite retreat.
Sinuous sputum, spectacular spatula, baroque stupidity.
To portion out the oblivion of one's life.
The forest is not destroyed by a wooden hut - nor will it be harmed by a gingerbread hut - it is the path to that hut which wounds. And if the sugared prison is broken apart by a savoury woodcutter, then the forest will begin to tremble.
Nonsense is something of a revolving door.
Anxiety in my ears, the septic build up of years, a waxy re-routing of tears. Not deep thoughts but slow ones.
No wind yet.
There is an injustice in having to be in one place at one time. One suspects that we are creatures destined to be multiple and connected; all points, all places; and then one will be very still.
The concierge says that the key is functioning perfectly. Perhaps it is the door that is causing you problems?
He was writing a novel and had to stop because everything he wrote came true. Someone suggested that he carry on but give the novel a happy ending. And who, he asked, would buy that?
He wrote: Jimmy's amazing jissom astonishes his gang as it leaps through his blurred fist to dance before them in animated tableaux. His come forms an amazing cartoon into which they enter so as to rescue the Princess. Twice they succeed and twice she is recaptured. Jimmy's friends are enthralled by this adventure and yet on Jimmy's third and final orgasm his spunk is done and the vision gone and the gang are horrified for it is all over and the Princess remains locked up and they, although shamed to admit it, feel responsible for this. They suspect they have unconsciously conspired to allow for the easy recapture of the Princess. Jimmy's balls are aching, spent baubles; all he ever wished of his special juices was that his friends would appreciate them. Instead those friends now turn on him, and ridicule him so as to cover up their shame for the failures of their inglorious adventure.
The liquidity of thought will erode or otherwise attack any concrete expression. Through the dumping ground of brain and mineral heart this fluid, disallowed from common or open flow, is a leachate of dissolved magnificence and terror.
Eroded like a frozen lake skated upon, the mind has a regular pattern of grooves around its edge. In the middle it is empty apart from a gradually frosting over crack, a hole that opened briefly and then shut on top of a child.
|The Skating Minister by Henry Raeburn|
Go conk me pan: Waiting on the stupid inside of you like a classroom caught agog at the sight of a pile of books precariously held aloft by ajar door and door-frame.
A spray of glitter, pillow stuffing for a prison existence.
When digging a hole keep digging but ensure that one changes direction. Now one is tunnelling.
Beyond its stretch marks this universe is satiated with the love of its own conception. Stars and void suffer from a sense of loss.
In separation anxiety there is a deep seated desire for connection simultaneously linked to an oft destructive wariness of intimacy.
We are all twins of the broken bond, our better sibling abandoned in the womb.
We are both jealous of and saddened by this absence.
We are frightened of the unspoken knowledge of how questions posed in one nebula may be immediately answered in another. If this is allowed, so will hurt felt in one place be immediately experienced by the entire body.
I lift my head above the parapet, a crown appears upon my head. I think it is a crown at first but it turns out to be a fortified wall.
I lift my head above the parapet.
I am crowned, the crown turns into a wall which make me safe, although my kingdom is small.
I lift my head above the parapet; the sight is astonishing, as if all the world were mine. From out my brow there grows a crown; it turns into a fortress.
I lift my head above the parapet.
Anxiety in my ears, septic build up of years, a waxy re-routing of tears.
Not deep thoughts but slow ones.
The estuary beats out its own time and we, at last, are quiet for a while.
Now we dare hold it, make a shape of it, and even dredge it for the untainted sun.
The key works fine, do you have the right door?